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There are a lot of things that are hard, forgiveness is one of them. I mean why forgive somebody for betraying you, being un-loyal to you, simply ignoring you. & the one thing you just can’t seem to figure out is, what did i do to deserve this? Maybe you did something, maybe you didn’t do anything, but yet you are struggling to forgive. Let me tell you why it’s so important to forgive and let go. This week i learned something i never expected to hear in a million years, I heard one of my friends, well we drifted apart because of some things but i still considered her somebody that would know never to do what she did because of the pain she saw me go through. But she did the unexpected.. & did that one thing that destroyed me inside, when i heard what she had done/ is doing, i felt so much anger, pain, i felt betrayed. How could a good friend have done this? what did I do to her to deserve this? I wanted her to feel all the pain i was feeling, i wanted her to feel empty. I certainly did not like feeling this way towards anyone, all i wanted was the feeling of forgiveness towards her, i wanted the pain to go away that she had caused. I’m at the book store searching for a book just feeling anger because i had found this out just trying to forget about it. Then i come across this book called “The Christianatheist” yeah the title might throw you off because what Christian could be an atheist? Well, it’s about believing in God but living as if he doesn’t exist. So I think to myself, wow, in my life right now i’m struggling to live by Gods will, i think i’ll get this book. After I got the book i read the titles of the chapters, i came across a chapter called “When you believe in God but won’t forgive” i thought, God, you work in such unordinary, yet simple ways. I love you. But of course i had to read five chapters before i got to that one. It took me less than 24 hours to get there. As i’m reading the chapter I just want to forgive her. So i’m searching for the answers, and this author gives us a visual, (I love visuals) he said, “when you pull a weed from the ground, if you don’t get the roots, the weed will return.” “According to Ephesians 4:31 - 32, the only way to eliminate the root of bitterness is forgiveness.”-(authors words) (actual verse) —->”Get rid of of all bitterness, rage, and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Of course i’m like ah.. but it’s hard.. but then i think about it.. if God didn’t forgive us of our sins that means he wouldn’t love us, but he did forgive us because God is love. & if God wants us to forgive one another like he forgave us why wouldn’t i listen? I want to obey my Father. So i pray to God saying, i want to be able to forgive her, i don’t want to feel anger, pain or un-forgiveness, i just want to forgive her.. i kept praying for the feeling of forgiving. Soon God answered my prayer, I felt forgiveness towards her. & finally i was at peace with myself, and her. i won’t let her tear me up because of her wrongs, even though she didn’t say sorry, doesn’t care, i forgive that girl, i love her unconditionally and only want the best for her. Dear friend, i forgive you and i love you. I wrote you letter for when the time is right to give to you. See forgiving is hard, very hard, it’s easier said than done. But when we have forgiveness we become at peace with ourselves, we don’t dwell on what causes the pain, we are not angry anymore, why wouldn’t you want to feel forgiveness, joy? why stay stuck feeling angry? Won’t make it any better. Ask God to help you forgive if you are struggling and i promise he will be there listening and answering your prayers, maybe sometimes not in the way you want it, but in his way, which is the best way to live, by HIS will, not yours. Colossians 3:13 “forgive as the Lord forgave you.”
"By faith, we can the find ability to forgive those who’ve wronged us." -Craig Groeschel (writer of the book i’m now reading)